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Interview's over. Now it's just waiting to see if I do get into the exco.

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Ball training is fun. =D

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Had 4J outing at WCP yesterday. The usual numbers turned up. Apparently the whole class is always a bunch of girls and always that few number of guys. Makes no difference to me though, I'm a person of little words. It was supposed to be a picnic, but a lot of the food turned out to be inedible in some way or another. Ky and Daniel banged the watermelons. As in BANGED. Meow's fries were voted the most inedible. Mavis and Wei Lun made brownies. Cindy and Yanru made nice jellies. Jasmine brought marshmellows. Someone else brought green tea i think. Yea..the food part wasn't interesting. The whole thing wasn't interesting. At least for me. It's understandable since it's just a whole big long do nothing but just talk and socialise session. Something that I can never excel in and do not enjoy. It's not anti-social, i think it's just my personality. I must make my point that uninteresting is not equal to lousy or negative. I did enjoy the thing. For me, it's more of the getting together and seeing each other that matters. I find it hard to put in words. My english ain't good. One of the highlight of the day was the tagboard scripts printed out by Jasmine. Guess I gained some insights from the whole thing.
1. Saw a new side of jasmine through the flaming and stuff. I never knew that she was someone who could come up with the words she did. It's not that the words are extremely insulting or vulgar or hardcore etc. Maybe it's more of her personality I saw.
2. The flaming part..though ky and the rest may be standing up for their Wei Lun who got insulted through the blogs and tagboards, I don't agree on the flaming. Then again, I'm not saying that I would not rebuke when my friends get insulted. It's just that maybe I would just say something that disproves the argument of the other side, eg. Wei Lun indeed doesn't buy us over with money. Okay, that's a lousy example. But I just feel that the rebuttals are just crossing the line. From reading the script, I get the feeling that it's not just standing up for their friends anymore, but a bit more like using their friend who got insulted as a reason to form personal attacks directed at Melvin. This may very well be unintentional, but that's the general idea that I'm getting. I'm not trying to help anybody to gain sympathy or anything and I'm definitely at Wei Lun's side since he is my friend and it is Melvin who started the personal insults thing. I'm just merely not comfortable with it. Hell, I know I'm just a person, and insignificant too. I'm just stating my stand.
Guess I'm a lot milder than the rest in such a sense. I may be a violent and temperamental person in the past. But I really did change. Maybe in many's eyes I'm still violent, then I'll just say that I may still be violent but a lot less violent. My friends who followed through primary school to secondary school may know a little I guess. I think I can only say I'm trying my best to be a better person in the eyes of critics. But I'm not someone who would participate in all 'flame war' stuff, it's just not in my character. It's not that I'm not good at verbal abuse and stuff, but I'm just not into it. I can easily spurt out a lot of colourful words in english chinese hokkien and especially cantonese. Why am I saying this? Perhaps the point I'm trying to make is that I realised I'm quite different from most people. For all I know, that's what everybody thinks of themselves.
Something I want to clarify since I'm at it. I know I always seem to look angry most of the time. I know that because people keep asking me why I look so angry all the time. It's just my normal expression. It's unintentional, but that's how I look when I'm serious or relaxed. Even when interacting with people, they seem to get the wrong idea that I get agitated over the smallest thing. Yet, when I try to change it by trying to smile all the time, I get teased on why I do that and people think I'm an idiot. It obviously doesn't help by the fact that I am quite hideous. So whoever knows me in real life and reads this, please understand that this is just how I look like. I'm NOT angry.
I think I've done enough for the night.

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It bothers me how people decide how others like based on their looks. It's freaking unfair. I know how it feels; I'm at the disadvantageous side of it. Just like how people vote in half-hearted candidates into the SC just because they look good. F*** it! I understand it's a natural thing to take preference to something more attractive..but it just deprives people who are more capable and more driven the chance. ( btw, i'm not running for SC ) I don't want to be one of those that just plainly accepts the 'fact' that the world is unfair. It CAN be changed if everyone can think in a more objective manner. Dammit!

=)

~~Oh that sailing girl..

zzz

I'm so drunk now..I can barely walk straight..

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hmm..no sports club this friday due to sa's sports day. It was super boring..juz watching people run and run and run..zzz.
After dinner, I asked Tong out to cycle with me. We cycled from telok blangah to harbourfront then to Raffles Place via Keppel Road under ECP. Eventually reached Esplanade, then we turned to Westin Hotel and past Funan Centre and past Chinatown then back to Keppel Road etc..until we reach home. The route was much more scenic than the RV route I took last friday, though the traffic during the part at Esplanade till Chinatown was pure crap. We had to stop every half a minute there.
Tong told me it was his 1st time riding on the road, and apparently his mom didn't know about it. He merely told his mom he was gonna go cycling with me. -___- I bet his laoma will k him if she knew about it. So I was briefing him on the 101 Ways NOT to Get Lubbed By Trucks. As I expected, he possessed the same fear that I had the 1st time I rode on the roads. But after the 1st time, things become easy. Anyway he told me 'sian' while we were reaching home, I don't know if he really meant it (because he usually says that every other time), but if he really did then I guess scenic cycling is not meant for everyone.
Feeling uber tired now, my muscles haven't even recovered from yesterday's sprint and here I am cycling long distances again. zzz. Lol. The love for cycling is strong. Hope I can come out with a new and quiet route soon enough. I'm off.